lose my charm

cam geli je kan bace title post tu..haha..mcmla charming sgt..ceh..
anyway..
i did lose the charm
charm for me is the attitude that people know or notice about u right on
i used to be this 'bright' 'cheerful' 'happy' person..
sekarang..
kurang la kot
mebi ad jgk orang x perasan perubahan aku
tp aku rs aku agak berubah la
from talkative, i've become a better listener now
instead of doing the talk, i prefer to listen
i've become a very boring person..damn!
nk jd mcm dulu
nk jd orang yg happy
orang yg 'who-cares' kind of attitude
aku rindu pd aku yg dulu
sbb aku yg sekarang adalah sangat "gelap"
yg terlalu banyak monolog dalaman
yg sangat "complex"
maybe ni transition process kot
terlalu banyak berfikir
dan pesalahnya adalah perjalanan pegi dan balik kerja a.k.a too much time alone in the car.
menyebabkan aku habiskan masa berfikir..hurm..
perlu cari that 'spark' again
i dont wat to lose it
i need it
where is it?