Friday, May 23, 2014
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
my feeling? Totally grateful
I can stay with my mom. yay
I love Kelantan and its people.
I guess, i want to do better as an engineer
Not just for my satisfaction but for others benefit too
I believe that, "do ur work properly" is not enough
I want to break the norm
I know that the path is not easy
I will have doubt, I know myself
but, I want to have something that will warm the heart and soothe the stress whenever I think about my job.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
i want to rant, i am angry, mad and disappoint at this moment.
maybe it is because i expect something from them.
because in my head, they will help me
but, eventually, whatever i think in my head, is only in my head alone.
people are the hardest creature to deal with
they lie, they mock, they ignore
they just don't care!
they broke ur spirit
but there r also another bunch who always be there for you
but they r not many
i m not sure i am with which bunch.
ignorant n selfish bunch or supportive and helpful bunch.
i hope i am the latter
urgh why am i wasting the energy and feeling over this.
Maybe i'm just frustrated.
yes, i am. BIG time.
i don't want to curse u inside my heart, because all of u r my friends.
but, Sadly, sadddddlyyyyy U guys aren't as reliable as i expected.
Monday, December 3, 2012
I'm staring at the ceiling and figuring about my life.
26 years and a month.
To be honest, it took me 26years to understand this life.
Somehow i was thinking that if it's not because of the pain that i felt, the people who left me, and the failure that i face, maybe i still didn't 'get' this life.
After 26 years, i am proudly say that i am now having most rational state of mind.
1> Detachment from what u love the most 2> understand why are we here in this world. (as a WORSHIPPER)
It was not simple at all. But once u get it, u didn't bother that much when life gives u hell.
Monday, July 16, 2012
U know, i have always this kind of thought. Right now, the relationship between me and Allah is quite good. I have relied on Him for everything since I'm not in a serious relationship with anyone at the moment. I can see the change in me. It's true when people said that when u're truly in love with someone, u will forget everything around u. And to be honest, I've been in that situation. It's not that I've forgotten about Allah. I do remember Him. But, not as much as i am now. I guess the only good thing that happened to me from the unsuccessful relationship is I'm getting closer to Allah. It was the greatest thing to be exact. So, what I am scared of is the change of heart when I'm with somebody. That's why i hope the next person that I'm going to meet is the real deal and He will make me loves Allah more and more by day. I can't trust myself. I'm not strong enough. I need support and continuous motivation from a man that is qualified enough to be called husband. InsyAllah