~~~Hey You..Yes U!!~~~

HeY..ThaNx For ViSiTIng My BloG
It'S noThiNg acTuaLLy
I jUsT need to WriTe tO FeeL beTter
WheN loT haS GoIng On iN LifE, I neEd a Place whEre I can Rest and StaY GroundEd

LoVe Ya..

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Cepatlah Datang

***this post utk perempuan sahaja**

Heidi cepatlah datang!!!!!!
selagi ko x datang selagi tula aku xtenang!!
sminggu ni aku moody
ati xtenang
mood swing
makan xle kontrol
seme simpton yg xelok la...adeh
huh tensen
aku rasa cam asyik nak marah orang je
pastu rase nk muntah pk pasal keje
urgh benci gile kalo pk pasal keje
byk bende yg xpuas ati
rase xnk bcakap dgn orang
rs mnyampah dgn seme orang
aku penatla dengan emosi mcm ni kalo setiap kali heidi lambat dtg
penattttt sgt
kenapa la lelaki x perlu experience seme bende nih
kadang rs moody sgt smpi nk nangis
ms tula baru ingt tuhan
nk smyg kusyuk2 seme
for that part bagusla kan
i just have to bear for it
and bersabar..huhhhhhhhhhhhh


if we have feeling to someone else,
what shud we do with it?
keep it or spill it?

i'm into somebody right now. but it's not that deep to even express it. it has been there for so long but only recently i've discovered that it still there. I thought a lot about this lately and get me questioned. why i always have feeling to somebody that is hard to get? or not meant for me? I'M CLUELESS

There will always a reason for liking someone or have a feeling to..maybe because of their personality, their charm, their look or whatever.
why i like this person? i don know..maybe bcoz i respect him..from respect i develop a feeling and now the feeling is stuck and he has nooooo idea..hahahah..it's ok..i didnt want him to found out bcoz i got a feeling that he's not into me. it's ok. i'm not sad about it..YET.

the word love suffocates me
makes me irritated
annoyed me in some ways
actually it's not love which suffocates me
the surrounding is
they treat love as smtg that keep them going
that keep them alive
and i hate that
i'm not jealous
i just want them to realize that it's more to live
why weeping over a jerk who doesnt even appreciate ur existence in their life
u got the power to end all your miserable
u have options
plenty of them
still..u choose to play dumb

being single is actually a tough challenge when everybody around u is so up in the air with love
but. i manage to get through that
i'm not hideous, not dumb, just like other people
i'm so wonderful in my own way
i'm somebody
so i should end up with 'somebody' n not just anybody
and every girl should think that way
have a pride
coz u got nothing to lose

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I absolutely wanna be better

there will be 1 time in ur life when u feel like u're not giving enough
and i'm in that moment

i can be better,i want to be better but i don know whats holding me..and time is my biggest enemy...always fly whenever i need it.

I don want to blame myself because i think that i already gave a bit effort to make myself better but i guess it just not enough. i keep hesitated every time i start doing things. Maybe it's a learning process..

I want to prove that i'm important..i want to prove that i'm somebody. i want to be awesome!

Here in my new world, i'm lost. I'm getting there but the path is still blurry.

i need Satisfaction..I want to be the one that people will look up to and i will be!!!so i must stop whining n start believing!

Friday, January 8, 2010

Truly Saviour

Ya Allah..terima kasih kerana setiap apa yang aku risaukan telah Engkau hulurkan bantuanMu.
Setiap kali Allah mendengar doaku..setiap kali itu juga aku rasa AMAT disayangi..

Hari ini bermula dengan agak serabut..hati,jiwa,fikiran turut sama menangis..tapi aku percaya padaNya. Aku tidak suka menjadi lemah..hati aku tidak membenarkan airmataku mengalir.Permulaan yang pahit diakhiri dengan kesenangan..wpun masih belum berakhir namun fasa kesulitan itu telah pun dipermudahkan.Ya Allah..pertolonganMu amat kurasai..Namun apabila menilai imanku..aku jadi malu..aku mengakui aku cepat lalai..namun aku akan cuba untuk menjadi hambaMu yang terbaik..Bimbinglah aku dan kurniakanlah seseorang dr hamba yang Engkau sayangi untuk turut membimbing dan mengajarku. Aminn..

My heart drenched in wine

i felt like crying now..
the only hope is Allah coz i'm on my own now..
sometimes i felt that it's not fair to leave me alone n doing all this by myself
Ya Allah..you are my Saviour..Please2..help me to go trough this challenge..
I'm alone now..n nobody will understand even though i cried my lungs out..

I'M in The MooD of This