Yakinlah aku menjemputmu

My besfren, fana, introduce me to this song
at first aku cm x denga n hayati sgt lirik ni..
and then balik umah aku denga lagi skali..
hmm..lagu ni memang somthingla..
for me la..
it gives some soothing effect..haha..
jom denga..~



tenang sayang..ku sambut engkau datang
ku yakin engkau menjemputku~

Cepatlah Datang

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Heidi cepatlah datang!!!!!!
selagi ko x datang selagi tula aku xtenang!!
sminggu ni aku moody
ati xtenang
mood swing
makan xle kontrol
seme simpton yg xelok la...adeh
huh tensen
aku rasa cam asyik nak marah orang je
tensen
pastu rase nk muntah pk pasal keje
urgh benci gile kalo pk pasal keje
byk bende yg xpuas ati
rase xnk bcakap dgn orang
rs mnyampah dgn seme orang
penattttttttttttttttttt
aku penatla dengan emosi mcm ni kalo setiap kali heidi lambat dtg
penattttt sgt
kenapa la lelaki x perlu experience seme bende nih
kadang rs moody sgt smpi nk nangis
ms tula baru ingt tuhan
nk smyg kusyuk2 seme
for that part bagusla kan
hmm..ntahla
i just have to bear for it
and bersabar..huhhhhhhhhhhhh

feeling

if we have feeling to someone else,
what shud we do with it?
keep it or spill it?

i'm into somebody right now. but it's not that deep to even express it. it has been there for so long but only recently i've discovered that it still there. I thought a lot about this lately and get me questioned. why i always have feeling to somebody that is hard to get? or not meant for me? I'M CLUELESS

There will always a reason for liking someone or have a feeling to..maybe because of their personality, their charm, their look or whatever.
why i like this person? i don know..maybe bcoz i respect him..from respect i develop a feeling and now the feeling is stuck and he has nooooo idea..hahahah..it's ok..i didnt want him to found out bcoz i got a feeling that he's not into me. it's ok. i'm not sad about it..YET.

the word love suffocates me
makes me irritated
annoyed me in some ways
actually it's not love which suffocates me
the surrounding is
people
they treat love as smtg that keep them going
that keep them alive
and i hate that
i'm not jealous
i just want them to realize that it's more to live
why weeping over a jerk who doesnt even appreciate ur existence in their life
u got the power to end all your miserable
u have options
plenty of them
still..u choose to play dumb

being single is actually a tough challenge when everybody around u is so up in the air with love
but. i manage to get through that
i'm not hideous, not dumb, just like other people
i'm so wonderful in my own way
i'm somebody
so i should end up with 'somebody' n not just anybody
and every girl should think that way
have a pride
coz u got nothing to lose

I absolutely wanna be better

there will be 1 time in ur life when u feel like u're not giving enough
and i'm in that moment

i can be better,i want to be better but i don know whats holding me..and time is my biggest enemy...always fly whenever i need it.

I don want to blame myself because i think that i already gave a bit effort to make myself better but i guess it just not enough. i keep hesitated every time i start doing things. Maybe it's a learning process..

I want to prove that i'm important..i want to prove that i'm somebody. i want to be awesome!

Here in my new world, i'm lost. I'm getting there but the path is still blurry.

i need Satisfaction..I want to be the one that people will look up to and i will be!!!so i must stop whining n start believing!

Truly Saviour

Ya Allah..terima kasih kerana setiap apa yang aku risaukan telah Engkau hulurkan bantuanMu.
Setiap kali Allah mendengar doaku..setiap kali itu juga aku rasa AMAT disayangi..

Hari ini bermula dengan agak serabut..hati,jiwa,fikiran turut sama menangis..tapi aku percaya padaNya. Aku tidak suka menjadi lemah..hati aku tidak membenarkan airmataku mengalir.Permulaan yang pahit diakhiri dengan kesenangan..wpun masih belum berakhir namun fasa kesulitan itu telah pun dipermudahkan.Ya Allah..pertolonganMu amat kurasai..Namun apabila menilai imanku..aku jadi malu..aku mengakui aku cepat lalai..namun aku akan cuba untuk menjadi hambaMu yang terbaik..Bimbinglah aku dan kurniakanlah seseorang dr hamba yang Engkau sayangi untuk turut membimbing dan mengajarku. Aminn..

My heart drenched in wine

i felt like crying now..
I'M SO STRESS
the only hope is Allah coz i'm on my own now..
sometimes i felt that it's not fair to leave me alone n doing all this by myself
Ya Allah..you are my Saviour..Please2..help me to go trough this challenge..
I'm alone now..n nobody will understand even though i cried my lungs out..

Hari Jeles Saye

sy cepat jeles..tp kalau sy jeles xdela sy g wat pape pon..cuma dlm hati jela..tp sy rs bnd tu normal je..tp kalo boleh sy xnk rs jeles..sbb kalo jeles ne mksudnya xbersyukur kan..so seboleh2 nya i try to be grateful with everything..

sy jeles kalo tgk org kurus, cantik, pandai, kaya, gaji besar..hahaha..
sbb sy ad hanya separuh dr semua itu kot..tp oklah kan..not that unfortunate
jd utk mengelakkan rs kurang jeles ni..sy pon menenangkan hati with the thought yg diorg pn akan rs sesuatu kekurangan jugak..mungkin family probs..fren probs..mcm2lah kan sebab nobody is perfect..i do believe in that..

Tapi kalau saya boleh buat wish..sy rs sy msh mahu menjadi diri saya..cuma the skinny version la..hehe..tp semua itu boleh diusahakan.Alhamdulillah sbb sy tiada kecacatan kekal atau apa2 yg x elokla...USAHA..satu perkataan yang simple..tp sebenarnya amat susah...kdg2 bila kita berusaha..tp tiada hasil dan kita akan cuba untuk berputus asa. sebenarnya mgkn ad khilaf yg kita lakukan hingga menyebabkan Allah menguji supaya kita kembali kepadaNya.Semua kesalahan adalah dr kita sendiri. Jadi berhenti untuk mempersoalkan kenapa benda yang baik selalu terjadi pada diri orang lain..dan kita hanya mendapat serpihan2 nya..sedangkan mereka yg mendapat kebaikan sekarang tidak semestinya akan terus terusan mendapat kebaikan..semua orang pasti akan mendapat bahagian masing2 mengikut apa yang telah ditetapkan.Aku percaya dan pasti..Allah tidak akan mengabaikan aku!!!